chasing after the wind

I hate hearing people say “everyone’s married or pregnant” or “guess who’s pregnant now.” Being a mom isn’t easy work and some people do screw it up. But choosing to drastically change your own life and bring another human being into the world is such a noble thing, no matter what your age is. So, Happy Mothers’ Day to all the mommies out there: whether you’re 16 or 60, single or married, working or staying at home. You are great. Don’t ever let anyone’s judgements affect your most important job ever: loving and taking care of those babies. :)

I planned on taking summer classes, but they weren’t at convenient times and they really weren’t classes that would help me finish school any faster anyway.  I’m looking forward to spending more time with my baby girl and whatever friends I still have after all this time. I can’t wait to do the things I didn’t get to do because I was pregnant last summer. I wanna swim like all the time. I’ve been working my ass off to lose weight and I finally feel good about how I look (though that self-esteem will most likely drop while I’m shopping for swimsuits).  I still have a Half Marathon to run, and I’m gonna feel so great when I finish even if I end up walking half of it.  I want to ride some freakin roller coasters, because last summer was the first one in like 11 years that I didn’t get to.  I wanna make a friend that I can actually trust, because when I think about it, there is no one that I have ever been able to trust with my secrets (except maybe my little sister).  And I can’t wait to take Raina to the beach for the first time. To play in the sand with my baby.  To sleep in, until she wakes me up by grabbing my nose.  To take my sister and my baby to visit my Dad and Tammy in Pennsylvania and maybe do some art/architecture/Eagles sightseeing while we’re there.

Even though relaxing this summer won’t do me any favors in school (i’ll probably graduate later than I’d planned) and I won’t be making any money if I don’t get a job, I feel good about the way things look from here.  I’m happy and there’s not a thing in the world that I need right now that I don’t already have. My family has been super throughout everything and even though most of my friends seem to have disappeared, I’ve got my Raina and I’m totally fine if she’s all I ever have.

whenever I notice that one of my friends is lonely, I try to do something to change that. But maybe that’s just me.